Kamu pernah bilang, ada tiga tahap yang harus dilewati tentang perasaanmu pada diriku. Pertama suka, lalu sayang, kemudian cinta. 

Kamu pernah bilang, rasa suka itu seperti suka dengan cokelat pahit favoritmu. Kamu mungkin masih bisa hidup walau tanpanya.

Kamu pernah bilang, rasa sayang itu seperti setengah hati yang sudah terisi. Kalau kosong kembali, entah bagaimana mencari penggantinya. 

Kamu pernah bilang, rasa cinta itu adalah mencintai semua keburukan yang kumiliki, seberapa pun aku pernah melukaimu, cinta itu tidak pernah melarikan dirinya. 

Kamu bilang, "Mungkinkah aku bisa membenci diriku sendiri?" Ya, karena kamu mencintaiku sama dengan kamu mencintai dirimu sendiri. Kamu cinta aku seluruhnya. Utuh.

Jakarta, Februari 2013

What I Have Learned

Last week has been a rough week for me. My mom was flying back to Jakarta for 11 days, my brother was completely busy with students day at campus, day to night. And me.. spending my days work at home, totally alone. It hasn't that bad between first to third days, until I got PMS- which is I called the most terrible problem for every woman and I still can't handle it, then problems came. 

I cannot tell you what the problems are, but seriously they made me crazy for whole week! I could not find anybody to share. You know the feeling when you have a problem, everybody (even your closest friend) seems won't understand you. I just could not find a right person to share. Until Mom came home, (okay.. I don't know how to say it right) I let myself to mencurahkan semua isi hati. And then surprisingly, God have an answer to for me. Suddenly, I feel good. Really good. God said this,

 original picture: here

Sometimes we want to skip a lesson of our life, especially when we struggle on a problem. Or maybe we take the 'short-cut', we run away. Yes you can run, but I can one hundred percent guarantee, you cannot hide. Remember when we take an monthly exam in school? To make sure you are getting through all lessons in whole semester, you have to pass the test. When you pass, you are allowed to the next level. When you fail, you will have a remedial. Same thing in our life. The only thing we have to do is to learn every lesson that happens in our life. When we learned, we pass, then we turn to the next leaf.

The only matters is all about yourself. Are you willing to learn every lesson in your life? Let them teach how you to live this life. Good luck (:

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Anyway, I have a very very very great news, but I can't share it here for now. If it's about a great news, I always can't hold myself to share in my blog. I promise I will tell it when the right time is coming. Are you curious? I bet you are! 

Tomorrow is a Monday again, make you sure you have a wonderful Sunday night. See you in next post and stay awesome!

I MET GIRLS' GENERATION!

Yes! Can you believe that?

I met my nine gorgeous girls...





in my dream.

Okay I sound pathetic. The truth is, I didn't attend the concert, which is RIGHT NOW, in Jakarta. And one of my best friends is currently in the venue and sending me some pictures. HOW COULD YOU? T_T

Attending Girls' Generation concert is one of my dream this year. I have been dreaming of this for two years and still not get the chance. I remember once I prayed, the girls are gonna held a solo concert in Indonesia, and then they made it. I knew about the concert two months ago, at the end of July. It's kinda late, too late maybe. When I searched for the tickets, the best spot is SOLD OUT, just in a couple days! I don't wanna spend my money for the lowest price, because I had a promise to myself if someday I could join a concert, it's gonna be my first official SNSD concert, and I want to make it perfect.

But, the problem is, I don't have too much money to pay. I was thinking maybe this is just not the right time, but once again, I hate to give up on my dream ):

I am so sad, truthfully. I was trying to be happy for anyone who is attending the concert right now. And I realized I am just being so childish today. I was babbling with my boyfriend about this and all can he said was, "maybe next time, you will get the chance." *meh so cliche :P*

Well, maybe for me it's just all about priority. My number one priority, for now, is all about finding a real job. It's impossible to ask my parents for money. Money is just another problem I should solve for the sake of growing-up-part.

So, I guess, I will see you next time, girls. For those who are going right now, please have some fun! It's our dream come true, they finally come to our country!

Sorry about this post, I just have to let this feeling out and blog is the best and right place. Never mind me, just stay awesome!

PS: this is me, wearing my Girls' Generation official goodies. Me ready for the concert too!