Yes! Can you believe that?

I met my nine gorgeous girls...





in my dream.

Okay I sound pathetic. The truth is, I didn't attend the concert, which is RIGHT NOW, in Jakarta. And one of my best friends is currently in the venue and sending me some pictures. HOW COULD YOU? T_T

Attending Girls' Generation concert is one of my dream this year. I have been dreaming of this for two years and still not get the chance. I remember once I prayed, the girls are gonna held a solo concert in Indonesia, and then they made it. I knew about the concert two months ago, at the end of July. It's kinda late, too late maybe. When I searched for the tickets, the best spot is SOLD OUT, just in a couple days! I don't wanna spend my money for the lowest price, because I had a promise to myself if someday I could join a concert, it's gonna be my first official SNSD concert, and I want to make it perfect.

But, the problem is, I don't have too much money to pay. I was thinking maybe this is just not the right time, but once again, I hate to give up on my dream ):

I am so sad, truthfully. I was trying to be happy for anyone who is attending the concert right now. And I realized I am just being so childish today. I was babbling with my boyfriend about this and all can he said was, "maybe next time, you will get the chance." *meh so cliche :P*

Well, maybe for me it's just all about priority. My number one priority, for now, is all about finding a real job. It's impossible to ask my parents for money. Money is just another problem I should solve for the sake of growing-up-part.

So, I guess, I will see you next time, girls. For those who are going right now, please have some fun! It's our dream come true, they finally come to our country!

Sorry about this post, I just have to let this feeling out and blog is the best and right place. Never mind me, just stay awesome!

PS: this is me, wearing my Girls' Generation official goodies. Me ready for the concert too! 

Theme for 2013: Experiencing and Expanding | HAPPY NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013!!

I'm so happy I did my post on the first day in 2013, well today is went quite fast, actually. I stayed at my room for whole day with my dear assignments. Sad? No. Because I spent my time to watch a Korean drama, I Miss You (high-recommended!), I don't know but I feel proud LOL 

So, how about your first day on 2013? Are you going to holiday? With family, friends, your loves and whoever is, I hope you have a great day and make sure you're gonna have a joyful year! Last night,
I did my goal-setting in Excel format, which is here: 

Yes it's blank. The contents are private :P 

I've done my goal-setting before in my journal, I even wrote it before the end of 2012, in November I guessed. I'm sure I am a goal-setter-addict! I don't like make expectation in my life or something like "going with the flow", no I'm not. I love making goals, although it's REALLY hard but I'm so excited! As you can read my post title, yes my theme for 2013 are experiencing and expanding.

1. Experiencing

I should experience moreeee than last year. Experience in my future job, financial things, relationship, NETWORKING, etc etc. I decided to play this game, I want to make 2013 to be a DAZZLING *yeah I love this word* year in my life.

2. Expanding

I got this theme when God told me "you have to enlarge your territory", I was quite shock and I asked God back like "what? where are You going to send me to?" But God said, "I have a plan, you have to be My partner. Let's do teamwork, Jane." I swear I don't know what is God going to do but I trust Him. And oh, last December I got a hint for this theme, a really BIG hint and I still so surprised, haha

The goal setting I made was based on Arriane's "the young go-getter's guide to staying organized and motivated", you can check it because it's really useful! I'm not Excel person but I dare myself to set my all goals with this tool, and it's fun. I choose to take this goals seriously (I mean real serious one, which I will be a professional one!). I know there are gonna be moreeeee challenge in 2013, but I have full confident to go through this year. You know why?

"As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." -Isaiah 55:8-9

Yes, because I know my God is bigger than anything even my fears to catch all my dreams. I got this verse while doing my goal setting and I feel so happy. I thank God for everything in 2012, seriously... FULL OF SURPRISES. People say counts your blessings, yeah I'm trying to count but it's too much! Once again, thanks Lord God! (: 

How bout your goals for 2013, guys? Whatever are they, I hope you have bigger dreams for this year and let's we make it happens! Good luck and be blessed! 

New Year's picture above courtesy of Almara Shop, edited by myself.

Good Bye

Trust me, it's not a sad post.

First, do you guys miss me? :P I miss my blog A LOT. I miss writing. I miss writing like this without even care about words amount that I type, like what I did with my assignment papers *sigh*

Back to writing topic, when I opened up my blogspot dashboard few days ago, I spotted that my best friend, Sastika, finally posted up many of new writings. Last time I checked her blog she didn’t write anything and when I stalked around in her blog again after watched her video cover with Agustine (which is very good one and surprisingly, I became their first official fan! *GO GO GI!*), I found a post that made me a little bit emotional. If you wonder which post is it, click this one.

Good bye. I have a same thought with Sastika too, why people always say there’s a GOOD in goodbye word. I never understand about that word before until I said it to my beloved one. 

 

the day we separated for good.

It has been a week after the day he went home to Indonesia and I can’t still believe the fact he wasn’t around me anymore. It feels a little bit weird. One week before “the day”, I asked Sastika, “how was the feeling when you said a good-bye with the one who you really love?”  She laughed before give me an answers. She told me like she wrote on her blog. People come and go in our life, they step to their new chapter, so do we. Things go on and on, so do we. Nothing gonna change that.

I’m so glad I still ‘alive’ until now, I mean I’m not that broke like people think about me before. How funny they always said to me that I will survive or not without him and about our long distance relationship for one year. I’m okay, really. And I know all of you care about me, thanks a bunch! I know it’s hard at first, but this is a chance for us to grow up. A chance for us to become a "single" again and focus to our future. Of course a chance to have long distance relationship too. LDR is really fun! The moment every night I wait for his calls from home and then we talk all night along until fall asleep. I tell him a lot about my day in school and he tells me a lot about his job. And oh, we have our favorite words now on phone, “How’s your day?” :D

Good bye. It’s really a good one. Thanks God, He gave us a chance to learn about this. Before the ending, I wanna tell you something. Few days more is our kind of anniversary day. We actually had celebrated the day one month ago, he promised to take me to somewhere I wanted to visit so bad, The Peak, Hong Kong. And he kept it! You can see the proof here:

Thanks for reading! I'm so happy I can share a lot here to all of you. 

Sorry about being cheesy at last :P I wish you all have a good night!

Be blessed ♥

Not A Resolution

This is not a resolution list, but something that I want to do MORE in this twenty twelve year.

So, here they are:

1.   My mom said, “You’re growing up, stop buying t-shirts already! You should buy something make you mature or anything. And for shoes, go get some heels or flats, anything girlie.” Well, I think she’s totally right! So I stop buying sneakers and t-shirts, try to get some pretty flats and beautiful blouses or shirts in this year! Currently craving for these: Malta Button Top by Cotton On, Blue Sweater from H&M and a beautiful backpack from J.ESTINA (which is seems so impossible to get it ^^;). I'm looking for some new flats too!

2.   I am always having a lack of creative writing, after I realized, I don’t read any books in last year. I mean, yes I read... but I don’t put a commitment to read it. You should have a commitment in diet-project, in a marriage or relationship, you will make a relationship with book so I think we should have the commitment thing. I try to read at least 1 book in two months. Any recommendations? (:

3.   Remembered the first time I bought some make-up things and my Mom was so happy about that! She thought that her only daughter is really growing up! :P

But sadly, until now, I cannot use them well. I failed to put eyeliner, failed to put eye shadow, even not so good to put mascara (but I know the result after I put mascara, IT’S FABULOUS! My eyes look so perfect!). I watch some videos tutorial for helping me so, and now I’m so craving for Gel Eyeliner by Maybelline, and I wanna ask you guys, can you tell me the best liquid eyeliner for the beginner and for monolids eyes like me? I will be waiting for the answers, thank you so much!

  

 

4.   This is the most important! I’d gained some weights last month and my friends keep saying to me the words like, “are you gaining some weight? You look… full.” BAH! This is not very good! Last month when my Mom visited me, she also said the same thing that I definitely need to lose weights! I’m not doing a diet project, BUT, I’m doing to do a habit calls: EAT HEALTHY FOODS. I’ve made a healthy-rules board on my wall what I’m going to do everyday, like eat fruits and veggies everyday, workouts at least 20 minutes/day, avoid high calories food etc. So far, I lose 2 pounds, I’m near to my basic healthy body! :D

5.    And the end, always be grateful for today. Anything happens good or bad, sad or happy,  we have to say THANKS to our God, because He’s good.  

      “Thank God because He's good, because His love never quits.”–Psalm 118:1. 

Toast for 2012!

The last day of 2011 is now, is today. Make sure there are no any regrets in you before we say goodbye to 2011! If you guys remember, in the last January, I wrote myself a new year’s letter. I just opened the letter again, read it and a little flashback moment popped out in my mind. Thanks God for Him, the only One always walks by my side and this year has been an amazing year. For the struggling, for the happiness, for the time to chase on my dreams, everything! God is always good, all the time! :D

I don’t make any recap in my blog, I usually make it personal to myself and I just want to tell you all, this is the time to move on in 2012! I believe that will be more opportunities and dreams to chase. Whatever that is, just take the chance whenever you find it! And I have something to tell you my dear friends here, but I cannot tell it now what it is after I really make sure it has done. It’s kind a little project with one of my friend in 2012, I set the project deadline is in the middle of 2012, because it would need a few months more to make it perfect. Are you wondering? :P
Just wish me and my friend a luck to do this project, I will be so grateful!

So, what are you guys gonna do in today? After lunch, me and my roommates is going to clean up our room, re-change some furniture and more. Make ourselves comfortable for welcoming the New Year Day! I hope all of you have a wonderful New Year eve with families and friends, and toast for 2012! xoxo  

credit: google.com

Five Things

5 things you love about life
Family, friendship, love, hardwork, sweet memories.

5 famous people you would love to meet
Tiffany (member of Girls Generation), Sitta Karina, Alanda Kariza, Anne Hathaway, Sophie Kinsella.

5 movies you love
The Devil Wears Prada, Letters to Juliet, Freedom Writers, Bride Wars, Something Borrowed

5 professions you would love to have
Author, writer, novelist, journalist, fashion magazine editor.

5 best authors
Sitta Karina, Alanda Kariza, Sophie Kinsella, JK Rowling, Meg Cabot.

5 inspirations
Jesus, my family, when I'm sitting on my chair and listening to Chopin's and Lisa Ono works, when I'm spending my day in a cozy coffee shop, inspirations works anywhere, anytime in everywhere (:

5 favourite stuffs
Cellphones, Notebook, personal diary, Holy Bible, music player.

5 things you hate
Backstabber, plagiators, liars, anti-fan, smoker.

5 favourite places
Personal bedroom, bookstore, coffee shop,eating place, shopping mall

5 girls/guys you are currently liking
no idea :P

5 things you wanna improve more about yourself
Improve Chinese language, be good in something to do with money, being a good daughter, practise piano two times in a week, being wisely and put more efforts in every things I do.

5 things you would take to a deserted island
Cellphones, books, snacks, a best friend, a pillow&warm blanket (well, I can sleep well with pillow and blanket lol)

5 places you wanna visit
Taiwan, Harbin, Seoul, Bali, Lombok.

5 things you really want
Canon G11/G12 (bye-bye DSLR :p), iPod Touch, Black Berry, black blazer, Converse shoes.

5 songs make you cry most
Ohh, too much!

5 impossible dreams
Nothing is impossible if you believe in God.

5 dreams in the future
Graduate from university and have a good job, take my parents to move somewhere better and build them a beautiful house, and live happily never after with my future family (:

New Year's Letter

I missed out my 1st January 2011 post, I spent my last 2010 days with my fellas on new year last weekend, we did some mini-party and also had a fellowship at church, we had some good time. I didn't take some good photos *sadly I know ):* 

Well, I haven't said any new year greet to all of you, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011! Let's start the new year with the new beginning. All the best for you, peeps!

People always do some "new year resolution" at this time, I'm a little hesitant to call mine as a resolution since I wrote some goals, wishes and things to do in 2011. For me, 2010 is my favorite year but it's also become the hardest year to say goodbye.

Let's check the list what I've done and which one is failed or maybe I shud say I haven't do it WELL in 2010 (:

• Have good grades for college. (STUDY HARDER!)
• Have a HONGKONG trip. I got my chance to Hongkong actually, but something happened then I lost my Hongkong ):
• Have a new Canon DSLR. Still saving my money to get it!
• Have a closer relationship with dear God. I did it (: but sometimes I skipped my morning-meditation especially when winter season comes. It's so hard to get up early, idk why -.-
• Have a new blog site. Yeah, you read it now :D
• Have a Online Shop page. Yes, I have it on a Facebook page, and my mom manages it.
• Play piano/keyboard for Sunday Service at church. Sunday, 11 July 2010 was my first premiere! hahaha :D
• Have a work experience. err... I shopped a lot for my online shop stuff and packed them all to Indonesia, is that work experience?
• Have new friends. Bunch of new friends around me :D:

And now this is the letter to future me in 2011!

2010 was a great year for you. You had done some good things and some bad things in 2010. And now 2011 is here, it came for you to begin a new life! In 2011, you have to make your parents proud of you, DON'T EVER TRY TO LET THEM DOWN AGAIN! You have to get your first job soon, maybe a piano teacher? or anything you can do and it earns money. After you get the money, you save it, try to defray yourself without begging your parents for money again, and you can buy yourself good clothes, a pair of pretty shoes, a trip to Hongkong and a beautiful Canon DSLR! You will have more new-good-friends and you still with your dearest boyfriend and celebrate 1st year anniversary with him in 2011 at Guangzhou of course! The other important thing is you still do your meditation every morning before class and do some PW in your room when your roommates not at home, khkh. STOP EATING TOO MUCH, take more exercises, STUDY HARDER and get good grades, and stop being egoist! When you read this at the end of 2011, you will see what have you achieved.

Jane, January 2011.

The Interview

picture credit by Deviantart.com and edited by me.

Talking about blogging, I can say I’m not a newbie as a blogger. I’ve been blogging since 2007 , “Jane From The Blog” is not my first one. I’ve told in the first entry that I had an old blog, which is I’d closed it permanently now and start blogging seriously, I never share privacy things again here (:

Well, if you do blog, you will have some readers or followers and if you blog nicely, they will love your blog and being a loyal reader. You have to keep them interested in your blog, maybe you can do some blog giveaways (fashion blogger often do this!), vlog (video blog) or maybe share some tutorials about something you good in it (such as DIY, tutorial about Photoshop, etc).

So, what have I done as a blogger for 3 years?

Maybe I didn’t write something “wow” something amaze you, I just wrote whatever I think it should be shared to my blog readers. I don’t blog because I want to be popular and reach a number of followers to drop me a comment, not at all. I don't want to be arrogant here. It is more fun when you blog something that you’re passionate about. If not, I bet someday you’re gonna stop to blog because you think “I can’t be popular when I blog!” (got it?)

Now I think I should start something new for my blog, something that I never done before. I’ve read some bloggers interview, like Michelle Koesnadi from Glisters And Blisters did her first interview with Lexy from Quirky Explosion, you can check it here. The interview she did sounds very nice. It will be great if I try to interview somebody that I admire to? Just wait for my next interview post, peeps! (:

SEMBILAN BELAS

"Don't you think time is walking TOO fast??

Okay, really... you're not longer a little-young-girl, Jane...

You're now officially NINETEEN!"

Kesan buat Si Sembilan Belas?

Gue hampir nggak percaya kalau umur gue saat ini sudah sembilan belas. umur yang udah di menuju ambang pintu kepala dua. Bahasa lebay menurut gue, masa remajaku akan segera hilang, deh. Semalem di chat gue ngomong kayak gitu ke salah satu teman, dia bilang, makin tua sih pasti, cuman setiap umur pasti ada kesenangannya sendiri, jadi nggak perlu sedih makin tua nggak bisa senang-senang. Gue pikir, apa yang dia bilang ada benernya juga, sih. Lagipula gue juga nggak mungkin selamanya tujuh belas atau delapan belas, kan? (;

Harapan buat Si Sembilan Belas?

Harapan, yah? Sama kayak wishes kan, yah? Emm... jujur, wishes gue sama kayak tahun lalu, nggak berubah, hahaha! Masih sekitar soal keluarga, diri sendiri dan prestasi. Yang pasti, makin tua, makin dewasa aja, deh. Kalau kata my mom, gue udah bukan anak kecil lagi yang masih harus bergantung sama orang tua. Bukan bearti sekarang gue bener-bener udah nggak bergantung sama orang tua gue, ya. Cuman maksud beliau, gue harus udah bisa cari peluang job sendiri sekarang. Minimal gue punya pengalaman kerja sebelum gue lulus kuliah nanti. Mumpung gue sekarang ada di negeri seberang, nggak ada salahnya juga buat cari tahu soal pekerjaan. Apalagi di sini channel-nya luas banget! Yahh... Gue nggak berani banyak berharap, sih... wish yang terbaik aja dari Tuhan (:

Lain-lainnya?

Lain-lainnya sharing foto-foto pas ulangt tahun aja kali yah. Oh iya, tahun ini spesial sih, soalnya yang ulang tahun tanggal 25 Oktober ini nggak cuman gue, tapi ada satu teman lagi namanya Michael, dia berulang tahun ke lima belas! *applause*

Foto-foto di bawah ini diambil sama si abang ganteng kita yang lagi liburan ke Guangzhou, the only one Kokoh Indra! 

The birthday cake!


The birthday kids! We shared our birthday cake! 





The photographer!


Best friend! (:

Tambahan lainnya:

Dua kado terbaik dari dua sahabat terbaik.

Yang satu memberikan mini pudding-cake nggak lupa dengan lilin kecil, diantar ke kamar tepat pukul 12 malam di saat gue habis berdoa! Langsung make a wish malam itu juga wohoo. Thanks my dear you are so sweet!

Thanks a BUNCH Sastika Taniady! I LOVE U FULL.
Kuenya enak banget loh, ternyata cheese cake yah!

Yang satunya lagi, my long-distance best friend wrote the whole birthday letter in her own Tumblr.
Entah sejak kapan dia jadi ramah bermain sotosop, ralat... dia bermain dengan sotoskep katanya
(ternyata sotoskep itu Photoscape, yaelah!). Yah apapun itu, MAKASIH banget yah Princess Kina!
Sedih sih, lagi-lagi kita nggak bisa lewatin ulang tahun bareng ):
Tapi nggak apa-apa, aku tetap senang kita bisa melewatinya bersama di MSN semalaman sampai ngakak-ngakak, hahaha! We always do this every time gitu loh!
But anyway, here what she wrote in her blog. Nggak tau kenapa dia obsesi banget jadi princess sampe bikin cerita dongeng gini LOL

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Once upon a time, there was a beautiful little princess named Princess Kina. She was a very cheerful and full of joy little princess. She lived in a beautiful palace in a private island with her family. But one day, she had to move to another island and a new palace with her family because their own island was going to be attacked by another lame kingdom. So then they moved to a new and a bigger island, called island J.

Princess Kina who used to be a cheerful little girl changed into a not-talk-so-much type of princess. She felt like she did not want to leave her island and her master bedroom in her ex-palace. She was so sad because she had to leave her friends on the island, the friends who always accompany her to play, sing and dance together. She was so damn sad.

Until she entered her new palace, she was first so afraid with everybody new and strange to her. Especially when she knew that her parents were no longer the king and the queen of the new palace. She realized that she had to start to know everyone knew in that new palace. So, she had no idea where and when to start.

Lucky that there was a Gala Dinner in the palace. Everyone was invited, including Princess Kina and her family. Ah, as usual Princess Kina, she couldn’t ask people first, or smile first. A very shy yet fabolous. (*puke*) .

So, she was standing near her daddy’s feet, the suddenly, “Hi! My name is Princess Jane! What is your name?” a talkative and chic little girl who claimed herself princess talked to Princess Kina. Then, Princess Kina did not answer her, she was hiding to her daddy. Princess Kina felt insecure. But that little girl did not give up. She gave her hand asking Princess Kina to shake hand with her and then maybe to ask Princess Kina to become her friend. AH! When you are in this kind of situation, your parent must be helping you. Princess Kina’s daddy said ” Kina, introduce yourself, please! She is Princess Jane, the daughter of King John and Queen June! She is a nice friend you know. Shake your hand!”

Then, they shook hand. “I am Princess Jane. What is your name? Can i be your friend?” the little girl repeated her words. “My.. my.. my name is Princess Kina. Hallo, Jane!” replied Princess Kina. Then Princess Kina’s dad said, “Princess Kina, Princess Jane is a princess also, just like you. So, therefore you still want to be called Princess Kina, you should call her Princess Jane. You got it?”. “Okay, Princess Jane.” said Princess Kina. “So, are we friends now?” asked Princess Jane.

And, it was a little story about two little princess when they first started their friendship. The time flies so fast, until these two little princesses realized that they were not “a princess”. They were just two ordinary girl who likes to call themselves “Princess”. They have grown up now. They even are not living together anymore like years before. Princess Kina still lives in Island J with her family. But, Princess Jane lives in Island C right now. Her family still lives in Island J and even still building the Kingdom with Princess Kina’s parents.

And today, actually, Princess Jane is celebrating her 19 years old born day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wah. I can’t believe i just mentioned that. Ah. I have no idea why does it so hard for me to say this. Maybe because Princess Kina told me that she was missing Princess Jane too much, like too much so much. She told me that she was so sad because she could not celebrate Princess Jane’s born day together due to the distance that seperating them. So, by this great time to talk, Princess Kina asked me to type this to Princess Jane, and also to Prince Yu (who is now in a relationship with Princess Jane.

“Dear Princess Jane, happy born day! Wah, i could not believe that you are a 19 years old princess now. Today, i woke up and read a reminder in my cell-phone saying ‘Jane is getting older today’, and i was happy to know that yet i was so sad that we could not celebrate it together. By this message, i would like to wish you happiness and i hope that you can smile each day, even in your hardest day or your heaviest weight( you need diet!). And even though it is too hard to smile, then don’t forget to remember me or your parents or your boyfriend or your Savior! I miss you too much. And to you Prince Yu, i order you to respect Princess Jane, to be humble even though you are dating the coolest Princess on earth, to love her and to take care of her and also take care of yourself because if you are not healthy then who else will take care of her, and from now on you are also my friend ! You’re so lucky, you know? And, Jane, i have a present for you. Please wait in an hour then i’ll give it directly to you, so please be ONLINE! And now, blow the candle! 1,2,3 …..

THANKS a BUNCH for Kina Grace! I MISS YOU SOOOOOO
Ini dia kue dari kerajaan untuk Princess yang berulang tahun, hahaha!

Be Grateful

Manusia itu nggak pernah merasa puas, setuju?
Skala kepuasan manusia itu nggak pernah ada abisnya, dikasih ini bilangnya nggak cukup, dikasih yang itu maunya lebih, itulah kita, manusia.
Tapi nggak buat kita sebagai anak-anaknya Daddy, I mean... our Jesus Christ :D
Daripada kita ngeluh nggak puas sama ini-itu, lebih baik kita mencoba untuk mengucap syukur aja deh sama setiap berkat yang kita terima. Berkat nggak harus selalu yang 'wah' kok, dari hal sekecil apapun kita harus mengucap syukur. Bangun pagi masih bisa buka mata, masih bisa merasakan detak jantung, masih bisa merasakan hangatnya sinar matahari, kita juga masih bisa bilang, "Thanks God for another good day!".

Dan itulah alasan juga kenapa gue bergabung dengan sebuah blog yang (ternyata oh ternyata) dibuat sama beberapa teman gereja. And guess what, I'm officially become the one of the blog's author! Yeay! Thanks ci usi for inviting me, so GRATEFUL :D
Tujuan blog ini cuman satu, kita pengen sama-sama belajar untuk mengucap syukur dalam segala hal yang terjadi dalam hidup kita. Ya seperti yang gue bilang tadi, dalam hal apapun kamu bisa mengucap syukur.
Silakan masuk ke alamat blog ini bagi yang ingin membaca postingan "GRATEFUL" kita.
http://b-gr8ful.blogspot.com/

Whatever happens, give thanks, because it is God’s will in Christ Jesus that you do this.
1 Thessalonians 5:18

Who doesn't have a dream job?

Setiap kita pasti punya apa yang namanya dream job (kalau nggak punya, coba dimimpikan!).

Gue pernah menulis di buku harian pribadi tentang gambaran diri gue lima tahun yang akan datang, dimana Jane sudah berumur 24 tahun, gelar S1 sudah di tangan, pekerjaan mapan dan sukses. Menjadi penulis terkenal itulah yang gue bayangkan di lima tahun mendatang. I describe myself in five years later on Looklet! 

Ceritanya ini mau pergi book signing :P